Recovering...

I used to be a relatively successful youth pastor. I made all the right noises. I loved my job. I was a decent public speaker. I could organise a lush wide game. I had 'results'. Young people connected with the programs I ran. I was good at telling people what to do. Christianity defined who I was. My value - my ego was in Christianity, not...

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Finding peace in me

For too long I have been spending a lot of my energy on trying to shape my thinking into what and who I want it to think. Cogito Ergo Sum: I think. therefore I am - by Rene Descartes I used to believe this 100%. We as humans are different from animals because we think all the time. My thinking defines and decides who I am. I have been...

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The pursuit of my happiness

I have been feeling unhappy for some time. Too long... I used to believe that feelings are not that important. I always told others: It's not what you feel, but what you know. What a load of rubbish. Obviously we can't only live by what we feel, but in the same way we can't just live by what we know. Our feelings and what we know are integral...

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I am the moaning kind.

My week started on a rather challenging note. Monday, I went to the dentist for a checkup. I knew there was something up with my last and only wisdom tooth, but I didn't really know the extent of the problem until the dentist said: "Do you have enough time so we can remove this wisdom tooth immediately?" So my wisdom got pulled in the chair....

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